My goodness Logan was a beautiful baby! You know, some babies come out looking like they’ve been through a rough delivery. Not Logan! He was perfect. Perfect to me. I remember my dad saying, “Look at his toes and fingers! He must have been squished in there.” I thought nothing of that.
He failed his first hearing test, but the nurse assured me that was normal. He was a little jaundice so we kept him under a special light. It took him an hour to drink one bottle, and then he would projectile vomit the entire thing. All normal, right? Honestly, thinking back on it I will never really know. As a 24 year old new mom all I wanted was sleep. I was exhausted, and my beautiful baby would not sleep. I don’t think he slept for three months (or at least that’s what it felt like). I would put him down and he would scream. I would rock him for hours and I would fall asleep with him in my arms. Drive him in the car, you say? Oh no, he would scream bloody murder if you put him in the car seat. I remember how painful it was just to go to the store with this sweet, beautiful, demon child.
I cried. A lot. What was I doing wrong? Why won’t he sleep? I remember calling my mother and crying because I was so tired. I am very lucky that my parents live so close because she was at my house 15 minutes later taking my kids to her house. I think I slept for 30 minutes. That’s it-just 30 minutes. Then I got in my car and went to my parents house. Why on earth would I not sleep longer? Of course it’s because I missed my kids! (Please note, I learned my lesson with the second baby).
This continued for months. One day my mother came over and Logan wasn’t sleeping. She walked over to his bassinet and put him on his belly. All the guidelines tell you not to do that. I may have panicked. Watched him sleep. But he slept, and inturn I could sleep.
Fast forward 18 years. Do you think we sleep well in our house? Most nights we do. Some nights we take melatonin. Some nights Logan just needs to talk at 3am. Some nights he gets up to watch a new Frozen short that came out at 3am. Would I like more sleep? Of course, but I wouldn’t change anything about Logan, because all of this makes him who he is.
Live, Laugh, Logan 