Hello, everyone, I know it’s been a while since I last posted in 2022 a lot has changed since then I have a computer class, I am graduating from Chancellor Academy soon, I also moved from Hamburg to Franklin. And tomorrow on June 7th I turn 22!
I take computer class because I interested in modding Bayonetta and Batman Arkham Knight. My teacher’s name is Dan. I am beginning to create my own video game.
Moving from Hamburg was a little challenging, but it was okay. I moved into my new house by summer of 2023. I love the living room it’s big enough to walk around but outside there isn’t alot of places to walk. It’s been a suitable place to live.
As of 2024 I will be turning 22 and graduating from Chancellor Academy I’m a little nervous and excited for both of them.
Hello everyone sorry I haven’t posted in awhile I’ve been busy but just at the beginning of this month I’ve done my stories but this time I’ve posted fanfictions and it’s incredible so far I’ve done Camp Cretaceous stories but my second one is Shadow the Hedgehog based on one of my favorite videos with the same title. My first fanfiction focus on Yaz, Sammy, and Ben the characters from the show interacting with three new original characters. My second story is a bit weird one it follows Kenji (the character I hate in the show) reveals to his friends he was using them to help his father and now they have to stop him but they meet Blue Junior a character I created that is based on Blue’s baby before Jurassic World Dominion came out. Blue Junior imprinted onto Yaz and thinks she is his mother this was a funny story I came up with. My fanfiction author name is Logan Strongstaff who is also a character that watches the multiverse. I plan on doing more stories a Jurassic World story focusing on a original character, Star Wars, Batman, etc. I hope you dear readers enjoy my stories I’ve gotten some reviews two of them are negative but some are good I hope you guys enjoy them. My next blog will be about the fair I’ve visited too and I’m gonna put pictures on it.
Today is a very sad day I couldn’t get over Jurassic World Camp Cretaceous and maybe some of you are probably tired of hearing it but I can’t really help it. I really have no idea what was bothering me about the show all day I feel like I’ve accepted it for its horrible storyline I guess what bothered me most was Kenji’s betrayal probably because it was simply thrown in there by Colin Trevorrow just given a reason for Kenji to betray the others. It makes no sense because in season 4 Kenji is against the idea of mind controlling dinosaurs but when it turns out his dad is the main bad guy he’s on the idea it makes no sense. Another thing that peeves me off is that not all of the flipping main characters don’t appear in every episode I would like to see only Yaz and Sammy in every episode. I feel this series also wasn’t planned out very well. Here’s my plan for a alternate reality of Camp Cretaceous it would remind a bit the same expect Darius, Kenji, Brooklyn, and Ben would not be in it and only Sammy and Yasmina would stay in it. I might just keep the story between Yaz and Sammy the same because again it was the only thing in the show I liked most. My personal episodes were The Long Run, The Leap, and The Core because it provided a good view on the two’s relationships it was well written but it bugs me that in The Core the ending of that episode didn’t focused on Yaz and Sammy’s relationship instead showing the villains return with more mind controlled dinosaurs. It really makes me sad that I cannot move past this but I’ve have a feeling I might move past this next week.
Today was colossal mess. I just still couldn’t get Camp Cretaceous out of my head because I named something I have known as “Movie obsession” this is when I get so obsessed into a movie series I have these thoughts to just change the entire plot such as again just erase Darius, Kenji, and Brooklyn out of the show because they are downright stupid and idiotic. Another thing that still bothered me in the show you might think I’m weird but I just wanted to see more of Yaz and Sammy kissing each other because they’re the only LGBT couple I wanted to see so badly. Another thing that bothering me is that when I go on fandom sites like Disney or Jurassic Park I cannot edit anything I got to do so in May when I wrote for Kenji’s personality he’s willing to let other people die by giving the villains the laptop which has information to make hybrids just to save his friends but all of suddenly I can’t edit anything more it’s downright annoying. This is honestly a question if anyone can go on fandom sites and edit something please let me know. Beside the whole Camp Cretaceous being just half the time stupid in my google docs when making my stories I’m trying to decide what to do with the characters because this is an alternate universe/fan fiction story the idea is only Yaz, Sammy, and Ben are the only good ones and joins six new original characters in the story and Darius, Kenji, and Brooklyn are bad guys it doesn’t feel right but I’m just hating those characters it’s also a headache just trying to decide what to do with these characters. I know for a fact this sounds like another review on Camp Cretaceous and it probably because I feel no one agrees with on the cons of the show when I watch Jurassic World Camp Cretaceous it just feels it was simply reusing an old story for Jurassic Park 3. This is gonna be all for today but on sunday I’m gonna do another one explaining about my stories and I’m adding some photos likely seven photos based on either my favorite scenes from movies, games, and also showing you my vision of one of my favorite characters within my stories.
Logan here again I love the Jurassic World series I was born in 2002 just a year after Jurassic Park 3 came out and I grew up with the new trilogy when I saw the first movie I loved it. The sequel came out I loved it. It was awesome I loved everything from the Nublar to the mainland and the dinosaurs freedom that was awesome it got me excited for the next film. When 2020 came everything change Jurassic Dominion was delayed but the first Jurassic Park TV show came out Camp Cretaceous. When I first watched the show I hated it due to it bad storyline and annoying characters. Darius is downright stupid he’s constantly thinking he’s always right. Kenji is a arrogant jerk he’s completely self centered, never showing respect for anyone expect himself and also he’s the very reason he got all the campers stuck on the island. Brooklyn is a annoying girl she’s constantly acting she’s the smartest of the group and knows bests her personality goes from “good teammate” to “Annoying little brat” she’s just a dumb character her arc was completely boring same for Kenji and Darius but I hate Kenji more due to his actions in season 3, 4, and 5. The other characters on the other hand I do enjoy Ben was a okay character in later season but season 1 he’s kinda annoying. Sammy is a good character she’s the cheerful one sure she may be annoying but she’s a fine character. Yasmina or “Yaz” is my favorite character in the show she has the bravest, emotional, and loving arc and plus she’s pretty cute. My issues mainly come from the dumb choices characters make in season 2 Darius is shown to be gullible and trusted big game hunters despite they didn’t provided good information and doesn’t listen to his friends he’s a real stupid guy. In season 3 Brooklyn gets kidnapped by Eli Mills mercenaries after giving the others a laptop that has information to create more hybrids Kenji stupidly gave it back knowing he’s risking other people lives and he gets angry at Darius for no reason this arc was only in the first episode it matters nothing more. The last two seasons was on another island. Kenji apparently has a crush on Brooklyn I was like “No, no, no, no heck no!” because it was unbelievable that Brooklyn would date a guy who got her stuck on the island to begin with. Yasmina has a emotional arc she has PTSD and desires to get home and see her mother this really got me sad for her and root for her to get home two things about this episode kinda either confused or angered me. What did confused me was the fact Yaz says even if she gets home she’ll never feel normal again but other things says she feels these nightmares will go away if she returns and this arc wasn’t brought up again. And what did anger me was that Darius is constantly getting the group stuck for no reason he never cared for the group’s feelings to return home. I will add one note that I didn’t like what Yaz did was get Kenji and Brooklyn together but it’s what Colin wanted. In season 5 Kenji turns evil and the characters are heart broken Kenji believes his father is saving the dinosaurs via mind controlling them I hated that plot again Kenji is a stupid character. Darius and Brooklyn are still annoying as ever as they just keep talking about Kenji throughout the season and also at the end Kenji is quickly forgiven by everyone. What soon have happened is that Kenji get punished for his crimes and still Brooklyn should just break up with him and Darius is still a annoying pain in the butt. I will admit there were some good things in the series the animation, movie call backs, and some characters designs but the one thing I loved in the series was Yasmina and Sammy’s relationship. In season 1 they start as real best friends season 2 didn’t really do enough to explore more. In season 3 it made me want them to become girlfriends yeah a Jurassic World LGBT couple. Season 3 Sammy gets poisoned by the first hybrid the Scorpios Rex (I didn’t like how this hybrid was the first not the Indominus Rex) and Yaz rushes to find a cure and grieves when she think Sammy died but she lives and Yaz takes a cheerful and supportive personality which apparently scares the others including Sammy but I loved it. In season 4 Yaz is shown to being comforted by Sammy after she confessed she has nightmares. There was one scene when the two are in bed together (not romance) the two were suffering nightmares and had a good scene together it partly started my dreams to get them together. In season 5 my dream to get Yaz and Sammy together came true when it turns out Yaz has a crush on Sammy. Most of season 5 was horrible but this arc was the most romantic and exciting my favorite episode is “The Core” and I nearly screamed in joy after seeing Yaz and Sammy kiss it was my favorite scene in the whole series. I had mixed feelings of the show I write my stories and I actually have plans to rewrite the whole Jurassic World series not counting the JP movies I mean adding the movies, show, short film, and video games into one epic saga my biggest issue was adding all of the Camp Cretaceous in my story because I’m still being honest I like Yaz and Sammy only so for my Camp Cretaceous story and I’m kinda a “Keep the whole set” guy but I don’t like Kenji, Darius, and Brooklyn. Ben is still under the question do I bring him in. Still I love half of the show I now feel it was one of the good stories of Jurassic World I just honestly wished they didn’t have annoying characters and get rid of hybrids. I put the show a 6 out of 10. I hope you guys enjoyed this blog my inner critic tells me everyone judges me but I know it’s not true this may sound confusing like was I focusing on the pros or cons but still I loved the whole LGBT arc it was beautiful I do hope maybe there will be a sequel series or movie to this series because I just want to see more of Yaz and Sammy.
Hello I am Logan Lamlamay and I am 19 years old and this is my first blog. I was born June 7 2002. Sometimes my life is a little rocky. My diagnosis feels strange to me. I have OCD (obsessive Compressive Disorder.) I have hard times accepting changes, its too much for me. I began as a student in Hamburg School. The ten years I’ve been there it felt like home when I graduated I felt sad and alone. Wallkill Valley High School wasn’t the good place for me as a High Schooler. The teachers were mean to me, I had enough so I left there and went to Butler High School. Being there was great for the first two years but when COVID 19 came things felt dark. For 2020 and 2021, I feel this pandemic changed me mentally. I feel like no one listens to me at family gatherings I just feel empty and alone no matter what I do. My cousins are always loud it hurts my ears, my aunts and uncles just seem care more about the other kids than me like I’m a outcast. The only things that makes me feel good is playing video games, watching movies (not any horror films or action films), and writing stories of a multiverse that is titled “Logan+”. My biggest fears in life is that I will be alone, and also not getting my dream job at Walt Disney Animation Studios as a writer and director. A personnel dream of mine is to turn one of my stories into a Disney films. My future blogs may be about tough days, joyful days, and my stories if there’s anyone who is reading this blog may you find happiness.
For most people, raising children seems to be a very linear process; Preschool, grade school, high school, college, marriage and having their own children. We track success against very large milestones. For children living with a disability, it may not be possible to track against those milestones. We may never get to those phases of life. But that is ok, because life is a marathon not a sprint.
Similar to most people living through this pandemic, I am currently working from home. I will admit I am not a fan. Even though this is not my ideal working situation it has given me a chance to hear almost everything that happens during the school day. There are days that Logan requires some help because his paraprofessional is not in our house with us, but for the most part he is very independent. The other day I was sitting in my room working, and I could hear the lesson that was happening in the living room. Time. Logan and his teacher were going over telling time on a clock. Typically this is a skill that would be learned in Kindergarten or First Grade. At first my thought was that he is really behind, but I quickly started to feel really proud. Logan was able to tell the teacher what time it was on each of the clocks. This was a big step.
If you didn’t know Logan and his story, you may think he was really behind the average 18 year old. That is not the case, because this is a marathon, not a sprint. When you train for a marathon it is difficult. It takes hard work and dedication, and it is something that not everyone can do. When I was training for a half marathon it literally took blood, sweat and tears. Lots of tears, but I did it. It is the same for Logan. It takes so much more for him to learn how to tell time than your average student. I see how hard he has to work to do something we typically learn to do at five years old. But Logan has learned to overcome all of these obstacles at his pace. He trains everyday to learn how to do what we take for granted.
All the little accomplishments in life are part of our marathon. Sitting though haircuts, eating in restaurants, telling time. These are big milestones. HUGE. I remember cutting Logan’s hair in the living room when it would take days to finish a haircut. Now, Logan asks to go to the salon and he is happy to have a long conversation with the hairdresser. These milestones are all part of our marathon training, and I could not be more proud of the little things. Not everyone is on the same journey and we need to learn to be proud of who we are, no matter how our marathon training plan is different from others.
When I was younger, my favorite store to shop in was the Gap. It was an expensive, cool, name brand store and it made me fit in. All my peers were wearing clothes from the Gap and other name brand stores, and at times I was jealous I couldn’t always shop there. Today, you will most likely find me wearing Nike, Under Armor and Athleta. I choose to wear these labels because they represent who I am and how I like to dress. Are labels important? Do you need to have name brand labels? Of course not. But sometimes, wearing a label can help you to be understood and to get the help you need.
When Logan was younger I didn’t want to label him as an autistic child. I wanted Logan to be like everyone else, but I quickly learned that the label would mean everything to us. Without his diagnosis and the label that came along with it, Logan wouldn’t have received any of the services he needed and deserved. If we didn’t receive that diagnosis, Logan most likely would have been labeled as having behavioral issues or as a “bad” child. That was never the case. Logan was just misunderstood. Logan’s “brand name” helped us get to where we are now.
I am writing this because I want others to know that it is ok for your child to be labeled for these specific purposes. That doesn’t make them less than anyone else. In fact, it makes them just that much more special. We teach kids to be proud of who they are. Be proud of your gender, be proud of your skin color, be proud of who you love, so why not be proud of your disability? Be proud of your label. Be proud of your “brand name”. Most importantly, use your “brand name” to help get everything you need in the world. Use it to get the full time aide you know your child needs and deserves. Use it to get the transportation that prevents them from being on a bus with 40 other children because it would be overstimulating. Use it to have special assistance during standardized tests because taking a test causes unnecessary stress. Use it to advocate for your child and get the help that you and your child need.
I will be the first to admit that hearing that Logan was on the spectrum was hard. I will also admit that I may have pushed back on services because I didn’t think that Logan needed them. Sometimes I was right. Sometimes I was wrong. Everything you and your child go through is a lesson. You want the best for your child–I know I do. Don’t let pride, anger or fear stop you and your child from getting the help they need. Everyone should have a “brand name” and be proud of who they are. I am proud of Logan and his label. I am proud of how far we have come. I am glad we have been able to use it to get Logan most everything he needs. I will continue to help Logan get everything he needs for the rest of my life just like any mother would for their child. Love your label, love your “brand name”, love your child for who they are and all they are about to become.
I am a planner by nature. I like to know what is going to happen tomorrow, the next day and even ten years from now. With autism that is never the case and it is scary.
After Logan was diagnosed, our public school happened to start a preschool program. Logan was one of the first children to be enrolled in the program. It was an amazing opportunity because I was learning from the teachers and they were learning from Logan. Was it perfect? No, but we grew together over the next couple of years.
Logan was not potty trained when we started the preschool program. I was so frustrated because at 3 years old I thought for sure he would be completely trained. For Kyra, it just clicked and boom she was trained. She never wet the bed. It was amazing. Luckily for me, the preschool program helped train Logan. They knew exactly what to do with him and by four years old he was trained. He never really had an accident after that.
While Logan was in preschool I began to realize that we are part of a team. Logan’s team. I will forever be the number one cheerleader for Logan’s team. It takes a full team to make this work and we will always need a team. Logan had his teachers, paraprofessionals, speech, occupational therapists and many more. We had to work together to figure out what works for Logan. Not everything worked. Some things worked better than others. We were constantly communicating so that I could continue the education at home.
Logan attended the preschool for 3 years. Over that time the little boy who didn’t speak started to talk. He used the bathroom by himself. There were so many little things that he started to do that were amazing to me. It seemed like we were moving mountains—little mountains, but they were mountains.
Everyday we are entering the unknown. I have no clue what to expect when we wake up each day. Will it be a good day? Will we be fixated on the ending of a movie that we can not control? Will we be obsessed with death? Will we not eat the foods that we have been eating for years? I never know what will happen, but I do know that it will be ok. We will have good days and bad days, but we have days and are lucky to wake up every day and accept our daily challenge. It’s not always easy, in fact there are more challenging days than easy days,but every day is full of growth and opportunity.
Legend has it that the candy cane dates back to 1670. A choirmaster at the Cologne Cathedral handed out sugar sticks to his young singers to keep them quiet. He bent them into hooks in honor of the Living Creche ceremony. Historically this seems true, but the legend of the candy cane means much more to me.
A couple of years ago on the day after Thanksgiving, we were on the hunt for the perfect Christmas tree. We stopped at a few tree stands and had not found the perfect tree yet. Somehow we ended up at Home Depot. Home Depot sold trees, and to our surprise Santa was there too. My nieces sat with Santa and had their picture taken.
Home Depot Santa, 2018
At this point, Logan was already pacing. I should have realized something was wrong, but I didn’t.I told both the boys it was their turn to sit with Santa, and Logan said he didn’t want to. I insisted. Logan sat next to Daniel and Santa. Santa gave them each a candy cane. After we left Santa, we took another picture at one of those stands where you stand behind it and put your head through the cutout. Logan seemed fine.
As we walked over to the Christmas trees, I felt something hit me in the back of the head. I looked down and saw that it was a candy cane. I turned around and asked who threw it, and Logan said, “It was me,and I meant it.” I was shocked. He doesn’t behave like that. I sternly told him that throwing candy canes at anyone’s head was inappropriate. We continued to look but couldn’t find the perfect tree, so we left and headed to another tree farm.
I sent Daniel in the car with my mother. Logan and I rode together, and as soon as we got in the car Logan started to cry. He explained that he had kept telling me that he didn’t want to sit with Santa and I made him anyways. He knew that wasn’t the real Santa, and he didn’t want to speak with him. He cried the entire ride. He yelled. He let it all out while we drove. It wasn’t just about Santa. He brought up things that he had been holding onto for a while. It hurt to see him like that. I realized that I hadn’t been listening. Not just listening,but observing. Noticing what was wrong without Logan speaking. I learned a very valuable lesson that day.
We found a tree at the next farm. Logan played on a wooden train and his behavior started to return to normal. The tree farm employees tied the tree to the top of the car, and we started back to my parents’ house for pizza. Two minutes into our ride the tree slid off the top of the car and landed in the middle of the road. I pulled over, backed down the road and threw the tree into the trunk. We made it back to my parents house in one piece, and eventually we made it home to decorate the tree.
I will never forget that day, and since Logan has such a good memory, he will never forget it either. Just last weekend, I walked out of Walmart and the local fire department was driving Santa around visiting all the children in town. As I stepped out the door, Santa drove by and reached out to hand me a candy cane. I cried. It was my reminder that in this very difficult time of year I need to pay more attention to what my children need. I need to listen to everything they have to say and help them work through all the difficult things in life, even activities as small as a picture with Santa.
Live, Laugh, Logan 